What is a hug?

A hug is something special
A hug can give such joy
A hug can bring a little smile
To every girl and boy
A hug can say a thousand words
Without a single spoken one
A hug can put things right again
When everything seems wrong
A hug can be a lovely thing
It doesn't have to contain a touch
A hug can be on paper
The word 'hug' just means so much
So I'm sending you a special hug
Not physical, it's true
But this hug is sent to let you know
I think the world of you

Frozen Love

Frozen Love

I always thought we'd grow old together.
Facing each new day.
But now, in the tears that fall upon my face.
Your memory fades away.

We walked with our problems in silence.
Dawn falling into dusk.
Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet.
Along with what grieved us.

In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls.
I want to scream and shout.
My mouth opens, but the tortured words...
Just won't come out.

You! This man I began to like.
Got lost for a "Nothing".
Everything i'd built, destroyed.
Over one careless fling.

Used to think I was so lucky.
I had it all.
Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed.
You just watched me fall.

My heart bleeds.
The snow becomes red.
How life has mocked you.
Were you ever here? memories gone, dead.

Your like salt on an open wound.
Reminding me you once were here.
Warm like the blood in my veins.
The love I had for you friend , so dear.

In my distorted, broken dreams.
So empty, yet real.
I'm floating through air.
I touch your face, hoping to feel.

This frozen silence belongs to you.
I'm all that you see.
I only want revenge.
Giving back what you gave to me.

When I think of what could have been.
What a waste! Such a shame!

Stone by stone, I'll re-build my life.
I'm stronger when hardest hit.
I know only to well.
This is the time I must never quit.

?

Why...?

Why do I like you
With all my heart?
Why did I fall for you
From the start?

Why do you cause me
So much pain?
Why do you stick to my heart
Like a stain?

Why couldn't I see
You weren't gonna stay?
Why did I believe
You were gonna take the pain away?

Why did you play my heart
Like a game?
Why couldn't you ever
Feel the same?

Why do I sit
In my room all alone?
Why do I pray that
You should not make me cry  ?

Why did you end it
Right after our depart ?
Why didn't it bother you
When you made my eyes tear?

Why cant I stop thinking of you,
Why can't I say goodbye
Why do you come back in my life
As soon as I'm letting go?

Why can't I forget about you
And put you in the past?
Why does a part of me still believe
That me and you were made to be friends forever?

Lost

Lost

I don’t know if you’re pushing me away or pulling me closer
I don’t know where I stand
I don’t know what you want from me
Or if you care at all

Your words lash out and hurt
Then lovingly draw me in
I don’t know what you want from me
Do you want this to end

Don’t turn tables
Or place this on me
Just come out and tell me
What it is you want

I can’t read minds
I don’t know where I stand
Are you pushing me away
Or are you going to finally let me in

Tears of Pain!

Tears of Pain!


You were just to blind to see  ,  how much I really cared
You didn't even pay attention  , to when I was really there!

I tried so hard  , to think of things to say
I never wanted to upset you in any kind of way.

I am so sorry if you thought I was never there
I am so sorry that you thought I never cared
I never wanted you to feel that way
I never even knew of what to do or say.

You were my best  best friend
and I had listened to every word you said
but you just wouldn't ever open up to me
always hiding your true feelings.

I never even ignored you
I wanted to always be at your side
I didn't want you hurting yourself
with all the pain you tried to cover up and hide.

So much pressure  , of worrying of what you might do
I cried every night  , asking God to make you strong
because I couldn't bare the thought  , of you also being gone.

So if you think I am selfish
because I tried to ease your pain
I am sorry you looked at it that way
hopefully the truth is what someday you will gain.

I am glad SomeOne is now your best friend
so you don't need to rub it all in my face
because the only thing I ever wanted for you
is for you to be always happy in everything you do.

So when I see you smiling
from all the way down the hall
I will think of how much I miss to hear you talk to me
without any kind of insecurity.

I will remember back on those days
when we used to laugh over nothing
such as the time I spelt that pop on the floor
boy was that really something.

I will remember the times
when we always acted so dumb
I loved those moments
because they were always fun.

Everyday on my way to college
I always thought about seeing you
because you were the highlight of my day
and because you helped me through in every way.

I am sorry you didn't feel the same way
and now here you are saying GOODBYE
well sense you decided it is now our end
I to, will wave my hand painfully back and forth, waving to you back, goodbye!

You hurted me

You hurted me


You broke my heart
It was really hard
You left me here
Left me there
I was Wandering in my own way
Everyone never say "I am here for you"
You came to me ,  saying TRUST ME
you do make it again
And increased my pain
By doing the SAME.....

You're The Reason Why

You're The Reason Why


The things you say don't always hurt me
But things you do don't always make me cry
The things you do they don't always hurt me
But when they hurt me you're the reason why
The things you do are without reason
The things for me to do is let it lie
But when I lie the pain ain't easin'
You know the reason you're the reason why.
Sometime's I'm up sometime's I'm down
Sometime's I don't know where I'm going anyway
Sometimes I feel just like a clown
And I don't know where I'm going
And I just don't know the way ....
I think i will be in peace
If I take " a Long NAP inside the groun(d)"

Hurt Me

Hurt Me


Hurt me
Why in the world did you hurt me?
Just when I thought I'd found someone to trust,
you took away your love and...

Hurt me
I still can't believe you hurt me
Just when I thought it was safe to come in
You let me want you, and need you, and then
You left me, like a child in the rain
Now I'm mending myself of the pain
Oh, you hurt me

Yes, you left me
Like a child in the rain
Now I'm lost in an ocean of pain
Oh, you hurt me
I fell in love and it hurt me
Can't you imagine how I'm feeling now?
Oh, will you ever know how?
You hurt me.

I am leaving

I am leaving



Peer into my mind.
Take control of my essence.
Crush my eyes and make me blind.
Burn my body with your presence.

Times have changed.
New puzzles have been found.
I find my life still so strange.
Disappoint me! You are never around.

I fall to my knee.
I call out your name.
Hold me! Love me.
But this still is only your game.

I am going to leave you now.
No reason left to stay.
Tears cover my brow.
I have tried and I have prayed.

Break me!
Take away my sight.
I do not want to see.
I am tired of the never ending fight.

I must end this.
I can no longer take it.
You, I will not miss.
I cannot take your fits.

You are my pain.
You are my blight.
You make me insane.
You are why we fight.

I leave.
I am going.
This is my reprieve.
My point, I am tired of showing.

Good Bye.
I am gone.
I will cry.
Please my love be strong…

You can't hurt me anymore

You can't hurt me anymore


Your words  , They used to cut so deep
Leaving painful gashes  , On my heart
Now they barely leave a mark
Within days, all trace of them is lost.
You can't hurt me anymore.


Maybe there are some scars
Scars of the past  , Scars of the things you did
That will haunt me forever.
Maybe the harsh words have been said
And the damage has been done.
I'll live with those scars.
You can't hurt me anymore.

I'll look at them  , Those gashes formed by the words you said
And remember
How you used to control me
The things I did
The clothes I wore
The words I spoke
You can't hurt me anymore.

It's not easy to walk away  , Each step I took
Away from you  , Brought the teasing and pain
But I kept on walking
You can't hurt me anymore.

Finally, I've taken off the mask
Of a perfect  ,happy girl.
I'm through with bottling it all inside.
It's time for me to just be myself..

I'm trying to stay above the water

I’m trying to stay above the water,
Even though the stabbing cold of the waves cut me
Even though the force tries to drag me down
Even though letting go now would be so easy
I’m trying to stay above the water

It’s freezing my body, hurting so much
But I know I’ll get used to it after it numbs me.
It’ll still be there cold as ever but I won’t feel it so much.
This part is hardest, getting used to the change
So I try and stay above the water

Kicking hard and breathing calmly, fooling the water
Making it think I’m okay, I can cope with this
Until the boat comes back for me
It would never really leave me for long
I’m so glad I stayed above the water